The Curse of Sugar

I love sugar. But it hates me. I am lured in to the sweet smell, the delicious taste, the yearning for more and more. I can't just have one price of cheesecake or one homemade chocolate brownie fudge cookie. I need at least 5 because they are sooooo good tasting! 

Then I'm trapped with the sugary curse. I am weakened and become pained in every muscle. It hurts to move. My stomach revolts. My body aches and my eyelids can't stay open. I'm literally sleeping as I walk every painful step to and from campus. 

So, I try my best to stay away from the manufactured candy. No more Milky Ways. No more Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. :( Then I realized that I probably should stay away from the home baked sweets. No more brownies. No more cookies. Then after this drastic action not completely taking the symptoms away, I realized that in processed flours there are sugars. So then I began taking out all white and or processed flours. I was doing pretty good for quite some time:) well... Like three weeks. Then I decided to eat pizza. I only had two slices. Those slices hit me hard. I am drained. I can't stop yawning!! 

Was the pizza last night worth it? Probably not. 

Do I need to have more self discipline? Yes, yes I do. 

The good side to all this is that I can still have natural sugars. I can eat honey and real maple syrup, which are delicious! So I am coming up with great new recipes and trying to find substitutes that work for my old favorite recipes!! It's actually pretty fun!! I feel like a scientist in the kitchen. And have begun receiving the nickname of the 'sweet health nut' from my roomies:) 

I Have a Really Good Life... fo' reals

I can't seem to be able to count high enough to be able to count all the blessings I've seen in my life lately. I must be on the list of people that God pays close attention too. I definitely have had divine protection and loving care this first week or so of being back at school. 

My most favorite example is the amazing people I have the privilege of calling my friends. This past weekend I had plans with a few different groups of friends. Because of miscommunication on my part, my roommate began wondering where I was. She knows of my health concerns and does a great job of looking out for me. Of course after 45 minutes of worrying and not getting me to pick up the phone or return text messages, she and all the others she was with had a reasonable level of panic. As they searched the parking lot and neighboring apartments etc. I was having a lot of fun dancing and playing games with a good looking boy. 

Eventually my dear roommate and other friends were appeased upon my return:) I hadn't fainted and or been swallowed by the toilet as some of them thought. We all laughed a ton the next day as we all found out the entire story. 

What I found out that night were priceless gems. One: I love dancing with a partner that can lead well. Two: I have a high reputation for fainting. and Three: my friends care a ton about me. They are heaven sent and angels in my life. Nothing horrible happened that night, but if anything had, my friends would have been there immediately trying to help. They truly are the best! I love them a lot. God is constantly watching over me. That's a fact. 

Oh! And another random tid bit, I am sleeping a bit better! It's easier to get up on the morning, kinda. It's not as painful, so that makes it easier:) 

A New Start

I visited the doctor over Christmas break and got some new insights. I now take a B12 shot every month, on top of all the other vitamins and medications I have. I need energy to continue through this last semester of my Bachelors degree. Soon I will be a college graduate, but first I have to be able to get out of bed in the morning and pay attention in class. 

This year I made four goals/resolutions. I have one in each of four categories: physical, emotional, spiritual, and intellectual:). This will be a good year!